× Future??!! !×

haiz~
I din go to bed..whn I close my eyes..i thk abt my future! many ques start to appear in my mind!

>wat can I do oth than pharmacy?
>can I reli handle it?it involves a lot of memorising and understanding! my chemistry and bio are nt gud b4!!!
>If i cnt get matrix, then hw?wher can i go private uni?my parents afford, but hw abt my bro and sis? they all wil graduate too! should i use all the money???
>if choose pharmacy, if i cnt handle it thn hw? 回不去了! 就算回头，也太迟了！waste time n money!
>wat cn i study?folow my frds? study bussiness? i dk much abt it n mayb nt interested at all!
>if cnt get matrix,go f6,sure i wil GG..it's hard and reli nid hard work ! i knw evrythg nid hard work, but at least private uni will nt as hard as those rubbish gov de sch, mz4.0 oni cn get our 1st choice!
>going to buy laptop! nex week going to pc fair! I said to my mum,mayb i wil sit my frd's car! but she seems like dun agree at al! she said mayb she can fetch me go! but she has to see the shop, hw to go??? i knw she worry abt me, as she scared the same case happen again..:"a group of friends went to buy gift for a frd, but unfortunately they died bcx of the car accident !"
I told her my frd wil drive slowly n he is reli a careful guy as well...but..hz..she stil nt allow...i dk hw? n oso dk wat requirements for the laptop! zz..w8 my cousin bro on9 thn ask him ba...hope he can help..nt dare to disturb him too bcx he is studying too..zz

>blood glucose bcome more n more unstable..dk y?zz....the useless doc add the dose so much dat make me nt dare to folow..i adjust it myself..but it seems oways high..zz i reli dk..i hate gov doc!!! irresponsible at all...simply add n like to scold patient..slow motion...useless !!!! worse than pig!!!

~And my bro..i jz read ur blog...oni i knw u r so stress on ur study n oso take time to worry abt me ! i'm so sry i oways dat capricious..gv u a lot of trouble..i knw evrytime u try hard to help me whenever i get into trouble...but i stil blame u jz like the incident of buying the laptop! ~Gomen~
bcx i reli dk who can help me as u knw more abt pc de thg..!!! anyway, i knw u hv to concentrate on ur study recently bcx u hv to try hard to get perfect score in ur final test as to catch it up!!!
Gambateh~I will oways support u! U are the best, Do UR BEST ! add oil ya ^^dn worry abt me, i will try to figure out my problem !!!


最近很烦! 希望一切都能快点找到一个平衡点!
tired~go to bed le^^